I may need to up my dosage of Xanax really soon...

Does anyone know where I can buy douche bag repellent? Should I just rub on deer urine? Would that keep away the people I seem to attract without fail? I need to seriously take my own advice and do a restructure of my life...I am built a certain way that I am grateful for, but on the other hand, I need to bring out my inner bitch and straighten out the bent situations in life. I go out of my way to avoid such stressful situations (for example I am pro-single) and somehow I find myself in a vicious circle of what most would call a relationship gone bad..I ponder the past and have the "what the eff just happened?!?" look on my face...in complete disarray..and wonder how I am having relationship issues with people I didn't have a relationship with. I know that respect is something that is demanded, and you market your own product for sell...but come on, I would at least like to see one person a day that has the values and morals that I was raised to desire and not only want, but give to others.

Does that categorize me as a carefree woman because I am independent and I do not need a partner to feel complete? No. Does that give anyone the "right" to not take my feelings, my true character into consideration? Hell NO.

I don't go on many rants, but I am tired today thanks to a few impediments in life..but hopefully after the past 24 hours, falling over the past will not be an issue...

Then there is this little pain in my ass..in all of my life, I have been called unique, weird, intriguing...whatever..but I was having a conversation so to speak with a guy, and he calls me "cliche"..pronounced it "cl-ish-a"...so I guess it should not bother me but it does. How you really don't know me dude...I know I don't have to post the definition of cliche because I am surrounded by intelligence in person, in cyber space..but here you go just in case you need some entertainment...cliche....how dare you bucko!

Cliche - noun - a trite, stereotyped expression; a sentence or phrase, usually expressing a popular or common thought or idea, that has lost originality, ingenuity, and impact by long overuse.

All in all, I am in a fantastic mood although the rant I am on is pretty profound...and I am sure it's all a bit "cliche"...ahh that effing pisses me off!

Guess who I get to see tonight? RITA DAMN EDINGTON PETTY! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Suck it Bonnie!

I am not sure how to start this blog with a title like this, but I will try...........

We had a great vaca down at the River...so many pictures, so many camera's not accounted for..yikes...at least I was not the craziest one on the trip *cough *cough April*...Something about floating on water and drinking all day that just makes you feel like you are on top of the world...and a bunch of bacteria....Wendy & Rita both had a cake made for me for my 30th celebration..Elizabeth Cakes, SHOUT OUT! I was so excited when I saw the little tastes of Heaven! To my surpirse, they were not in the shape of boobs...WOW! Many thanks to all the people who were on the trip...I was included just like I was part of the group, and I apologize guys..but I don't go away easy!

Back to Bonnie.....while at the pool this weekend..I finally realized that I am now part of the older crowd...and sometime the cougars win regardless...Now I have taught my friends that if she is way too hot..she is probably stupid..and we are smart effing girls..and that worked until this weekend...I wish I could find something wrong with the twat swatting *props to LJ* Bonnie biotch, but I can't...the woman was pretty, built like she was married to Dr. 90210 and was actually smart... I actually asked her if she was a puker..such class I have.....I will leave names out of this but my friend *Jezzelbellea and I decided that B must be sporting a meat cleaver down below..that has to be her fault..LMAO Why in the world do women find something wrong with other women, when it's the actual guy that is doing the selection of first choice? We are truly designed different than men....Who do I contact to get this flaw corrected?

Anyway, I am going to think some shit through and get back to blogging on a daily basis..My A.D.D. is in overdrive right now and things are making sense...which completely throws me off...clarity is not always a good thing.

**Actual names not used

Can you get credit for doing hail Mary's in advance? I wonder if I can take a full day, and just bank in on some good ole forgiveness...LOL, wait a damn minute, I am not Catholic....

I started off today with a fairly decent attitude..actually spent time curling my hair the old fashion way....and I guess I didn't get the memo about the rain... I love an Afro..obviously.

Oh and a big congrats goes out to someone I know who I will leave anonymous...you did it buddy..Nothing wrong with morals and the faith you had for what you originally believed in..You are a true hero and it gives hope to us out there who seem to be lost in the single fishbowl..

To someone else out there that will not read this, ever...WTF dude? Seriously?!?

To my roommate, I love you LUNDEE and putting up with me is a daily task...I realize this, and I appreciate you more than you know...

EWWWW Baby - Baby it's a Wild World....

What a great weekend out of Texas, for a day at least.

You know you are a real music fan if you are able to stand in the center of over processed college kids, drunk douchebag guys (I swear half the crowd was on ecstasy) sipping on a perfume tasting drink..and still manage to dance to the beat of some good ole Texas country music....I think I am going to learn to play the fiddle, it sure looks like fun..and to the guy with brusies on his arm, I am not sorry...and for the dumb blonde I scared half to death, your welcome...that I didn't punch you in the eye..sometime a "fuck off" isn't so bad sista', it could have been worse...Good grief Lindy, what do you think I would have done if she had actually knocked you or Cin down?

Thanks to the "indy" sisters for such a good time...we made it back alive (thanks for trusting me with your wife, Bryce..told you I wouldn't break her!) and without going to jail...Doesn't that kind of say something about life, when you are thankful you make it home alive or at all? GEEZ!

Eleven days to go until the big three-ohhhhhh...and I am excited for the future and I am more than happy to leave my 20's behind...What a decade of learning lessons and clarity...I think the t-shirt, been there - done that applies...it's good, it's bad, and it has lead me to where I am now. It's that mixture of experience of good and bad that grounds you..I am humble.